I’ve come a long way. I’m not the vulnerable little girl that I was only a few months ago. I’ve said everything I’ve had to say, and it’s been tough. However, I have no regrets. This year has been a rollercoaster ride, but I’ve learned so much about myself. I have seen how strong I’ve become or really have always been. I guess I’ve realized how many great friends I have, and how many not so great people I have surrounded myself with. I’ve loved, I’ve let go, and I have lived. I have moved on and have moved forward all at the same time. I’ve learned to appreciate the wonderful things in my life, and appreciate myself. I think that’s what I didn’t have before. I didn’t understand that it’s okay to put yourself before others. I’ve learned that sometimes I need to do that. I need to be able to put my feelings before yours, and know that it’s going to help me. No one has the right to make me feel a certain way. No one is allowed to have such a tight grip on me. No one is allowed to care about me only at their own convenience. I get it now. I can’t base my decisions or my life really on anyone. I can’t wonder if what I’m doing is going to make certain people happy, and I certainly can’t sit on my ass waiting for their approval. It’s okay to say that I deserve so much more than that. I deserve to be cared and loved for. I deserve this 24/7 and with 100% effort put forth. I’m not an every once in a while kind of girl. No one can do that to me. No one can make me feel that way.
Nobody makes me feel that way anymore because I’m better than that.